Days seem to come and go, But they all blur together. I am still trying to make sense of it all. I pray everyday for understanding and peace. I'm not exactly sure how I feel right now, I can almost say numb. But I have to get through this I have two beautiful that still need their momma. This fog I am walking in has to lift.
A new pet peeve that I have found is I really hate when people ask "How are you doing?" I know they all mean well but truly what do they want me to say to that. I just want to scream the truth at them, but instead I smile and nod my head and say "I'm fine", " doing as well as can be expected". what's up with that. When some one asks me I always think back to that scene in "Steel Magnolias" after the funeral for Shelby, when Sally Fields blows up in front of her friends. That is what I wish I could do.
I am surviving just one day at a time. I know it will get easier in time but right now I just don't know.
Vanessa I know you are going through so much pain and I want to talk to you and be your friend for you and I know that statement you were mentioning "how are you doing " because I think the same for you -She is probably tired of hearing that I just mentioned that to Diana just a couple of days ago about calling you but asking you how are you doing is a statement that cannot be answered.Of course you have so many mixed emotions and pain and you are trying to be so strong for your husband and 2 sons but you are hurting so bad inside just know I am there and I pray for you everyday . It will get better and you will always think of Robert ..just know you have many friends to turn to and your family to get you through it. The Vitale family loves you and whenever you need me "call me"
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