Friendship

A friend is a rare species. i believe that many people will come into our lives and make an impact on it. Some will be for the better and some for the worse.

I have noticed that there are many levels to the depth of a friendship with each and every person. We all have those friends we are acquainted with and those we only work with. There are those friends we know everything about and there are those we have known our entire lives. There are friends we hang out with , friends we talk with and friends we tell are deepest secrets to. and there are those we share our hearts with and then there are those that know us better than we know ourselves.

Yet with all the levels of friendship how many of can truly say we have had an honest to goodness true friend. I'm not sure i can say i ever have. i have had many friends for many reasons during different times in my life, but i can not say that i have ever found that one true honest to goodness friend in anyone except my husband. But we all need that one outside source of comfort that knows all our secrets and faults and love us anyway and would walk through fire with us holding our hand saying that everything will be all right.

i have realized that true friendship pr the lack there of is a very important aspect in our lives. I hold high expectations where my friends are concerned. I always tell the truth to those around me and i never hold anything back. i have few to no friends because of this trait, but even so, my approach has never changed and i expect the same courtesy in return from those around me. I wear my heart on my sleeve and never hold back my tongue.
I have tried to accept that others are not like me in that respect, but i find it hard to do. I take it so personally when someone lies to me or attempts to hide the truth or their feelings from me, that I find I would rather be alone than to endure that heartache there actions create.

I have realize that these people will all come and go into my life, and ALL of them will affect or change me in some way, whether good or bad, but in the end I refuse to change who I am for friends to stick around.