Kevin

Kevin Arthur is an unexpected joy in my life. We had miscarried twice and decided we couldn't gothrough that pain again when we bought our house. Two weeks before escrow closed i asked my husband "how hard would it be to turn the loft into a bedroom?" All he could say was you are kidding me. i spent the next nine months afraid to get excited and then the day he was born it was a planned c-section and it went smoothly. But later when they took me to my room they brought Kevin back to me after being checked out and as a nurse I noticed his little nose was flaring and he was grunting, which in a newborn is not a good sign. I remember telling him you need to stop that becasue if that nursery nurse comes in and sees you she's going to wisk you away. no sooner did i finish my sentence did she walk in a took him from me. Within a couple of hours he traveled to Children's Hospital in San Diego where he was stabilized the 24 hours later he was again transferred to Loma Linda where he spent the next week.


Well when he finally came home he was spoiled rotten. He is now 5, almost 6. He just finished Kindergarten. Kevin is a sweet little boy and everything his brother do or say to him make him cry. He can be a bit whiny but I think that is partly my fault because he is my last one and he has me wrapped around his finger more than the other two.


He has one more game in his first year in t-ball and loves being out on the field just like his brothers. He also seems to have developed a love of wrap music. I will find with an empty coke bottle up to his mouth to wrap the beat and with the other hand in the air spinning records.

My boys are my pride and my joy. They make life worth living. i can't thank God enough for giving me the honor of being their mom.

Trevor

Trevor is my middle son. this little boy is special in every way. there's nothing physically wrong with him nor mentally, unless you call being a wise-n-himer a mental problem. Trevor is 11 years old now and he's the funniest person he knows. Everything is a joke when Trevor is around, he try your very last nerve. I love him to pieces but I'm surprised he hasn't driven me to drink.

Look at him he's a beautiful child. He's a hard worker especially if you offer him money. He loves music but he thrives in sports. He tried tackle football a couple of years ago and broke his tibia 2 days before his first game. i was horrified. he spent the next six weeks in a cast and wheelchair. Trevor is at his best on a baseball field. he has played for five years. He can cover the field like a pro. He plays second and first base, short stop and catcher. He shines the most on the pitchers mound.Last night he pitched 3 innings, and the first two were no hitters. his third time on the mound wasn't as good. there had been a bad call when his team was at bat and the pissed off Trevor and he carried it with him to the mound. When he's mad his playing goes down the tubes, but when he's out there enjoying himself, the opponent beware.

Trevor is a sweet lovable but emotional hard headed little boy. He is stubborn just like his mom but he also is very sensitive and takes everything to heart. We tried for over a year to get pregnant with him and his dad and i were so excited when we knew we were expecting him. he has kept us all on our toes ever since. My heart aches because i hold him at a distance most of the time. we have become closer over the past couple of years and i do love him dearly, but he does try my patients with his wise cracks.

Thank you Trevor for your big heart and your wonderful humor.

Robert

Many of us always look for the greener grass or believe that what we have is not enough. i don't believe that. I feel that what I have is the best. but my heart is aching right now for my oldest son. His biological father walked out on him before he was born and now 18 years later the phone rings and the man on the other ends says he's calling for this long lost man. and now the e-mail starts.
I know that my son has questions that i can never answer, but in his quest for answers i can only hold my breath as i watch him go forth. I know he's techniquely an adult but he will always be my baby. I wish my son only happiness and no matter what ever happens my son has me and his step dad here to see him through it all.

I remember the day he was born. It snowed in Southern california that day, at the end of March. He was perfect, ten toes and ten fingers. He was beautiful. Time has gone by way too fast. He's 18 years old now. WOW!!!

He's brilliant. He challenged the state and graduated a year early, he loves music. He lives and breathes it. And he's got a nice girl by his side. He has his flaws but he's my son and I love him inspite of it all.

I thank God everyday for him. He grounded me when life could have taken me away. It hasn't always been easy, but it has definately been worth it.

Bob always remember that dad and i love you always.

I'm not sure what my purpose is by starting this blog but I plan on writing for me. If anything I write helps someone or strikes an idea, then it will be all worth it.
Let me start by telling you something about me. I have been married for almost thirteen years. I have a great husband and he's a good dad. My boys are 18, 11 and 5, and they all enjoy driving me crazy in thier own individual way.

Life has thrown me some doozies lately as I assume it has to many of you. I'll discuse things as they come along.

I work at my local hospital and I enjoy my job most days. There are aweful days at my work as often as there are good ones. I enjoy most of the people I work with and try to tune out those that iritate me.

Today I went to church and the service was about "Bringing Sexy Back". My pastor is a kick in the pants. he has been showing us through the bible that the vows and commitment we all make were established by the word of God. What i got out of todays service was that we have to always work at our relationships. Why is it that everytime I go to church it seems like my pastor is talking right to me, as if he knows something.

Well anyway this is my start to blogging.

In the begining.

This is the start of something new for me. I am known for being vocal but never realy serious but i hope to use this website as a spring board.