Friendship

A friend is a rare species. i believe that many people will come into our lives and make an impact on it. Some will be for the better and some for the worse.

I have noticed that there are many levels to the depth of a friendship with each and every person. We all have those friends we are acquainted with and those we only work with. There are those friends we know everything about and there are those we have known our entire lives. There are friends we hang out with , friends we talk with and friends we tell are deepest secrets to. and there are those we share our hearts with and then there are those that know us better than we know ourselves.

Yet with all the levels of friendship how many of can truly say we have had an honest to goodness true friend. I'm not sure i can say i ever have. i have had many friends for many reasons during different times in my life, but i can not say that i have ever found that one true honest to goodness friend in anyone except my husband. But we all need that one outside source of comfort that knows all our secrets and faults and love us anyway and would walk through fire with us holding our hand saying that everything will be all right.

i have realized that true friendship pr the lack there of is a very important aspect in our lives. I hold high expectations where my friends are concerned. I always tell the truth to those around me and i never hold anything back. i have few to no friends because of this trait, but even so, my approach has never changed and i expect the same courtesy in return from those around me. I wear my heart on my sleeve and never hold back my tongue.
I have tried to accept that others are not like me in that respect, but i find it hard to do. I take it so personally when someone lies to me or attempts to hide the truth or their feelings from me, that I find I would rather be alone than to endure that heartache there actions create.

I have realize that these people will all come and go into my life, and ALL of them will affect or change me in some way, whether good or bad, but in the end I refuse to change who I am for friends to stick around.

My husband. We have been married for thirteen years this August. I love him dearly. He tolerates my incessant need to talk his ear of (i don't think he always hears me though). He has been a great partner and father. He never gripes when he has to work. Of course he doesn't always want to go but he has to be near death before he would call in sick. He is a plumber with a wonderful company that has seen us through some tough times. He's been with them for over 10 years.

I can't say that our lives are perfect but we have realized that especially during trying times we can get through anything as long as we are together. We don't see eye to eye on everything, the biggest argument is politics, he's a republican and I'm a democrat. this equals lots of debates. Religion is another struggle because i believe in God and Jesus with everything i have but my Jimmy struggles with what he can't see. He is trying. He goes to church with me on occasion.

Jim does struggle with allot of medical issues. He has become diabetic and has peripheral vascular disease to the legs which causes them to swell to the point of being painful. His blood pressure runs high and he is over weight, but I'm one to talk, i have my own demons when it comes to weight. I am proud of him he is going to nutrition classes to help him with his weight lose. i believe once the weight comes off my husband will feel so much better and all these health issues will drop off by the way side. The bonus is my husband will be super hot when he reaches his goal weight. so back off ladies he's mine.

I love my husband dearly and that God for bringing him into my life. I am one of the lucky ones.